date: Monday, June 13, 2005 @ 9:17 pm
title: Rejection..
'Slashed by the parents' words.
Like daggers without marks.
My heart was shattered into dust.
Beyond recovery. Beyond recovery.'
Church is the best time to rest..
Not enough
physical rest and
spiritual rechargeled to
weak knees and
weak heart.
During
worship, I fell asleep.
The whole auditorium turned into a
sanctury.
The
atmosphere was filled with
wine.
I was so drowsy that I was on the floor.
Asleep :/When Pastor was preaching about 'Rejection',
someone came into my mind -
JieMin.The previous day. The interview day.
Things wasn't running well for her.
'One outshines one.'As you know.
Once a boy, always a boy.I dunno how to console people.
Sometime I might accidentally worsen the whole situation,
I didn't know what to do best.
I tried my best with:
'When you are sad, always remember that Zhi Han is HAPPY!'-Pulled up my tie with the wide happy face on it-
Tried.Futile.I understood what she went thru.
But with my limited vocabulary.
I could find the best word to express
my empathy for her.
Until Sunday. One day later. About 24 hours later.
I found it -
Rejected..Oh well.. Cheer up dude!Workaholic for Jesus!!Err.. sounds wrong but that's me.
I'm a
Christian 24-7 but not a good one.
Or should I say a effecient or effective one.
No. 1: I backslided in my relationship with God.No. 2: I was mean to my friends.No. 3: I was gossiping about myself and others.3-days of COOP camp screwed up my protected hour to do QT.
After the COOP camp, I was encouraging gossip abt my COOP buddy. (Sorry!!)
During LTC, I was mean to my female classmate. (Sorry!!)
Murmur. Gossip. Complain.No more.
So the next time.. -deep breath-
if I continue to be the same, somebody scold me.
Yar..
S-C-O-L-D. Scold.
Dun worry. At most I hid @ one corner and cry.
Kidding..
Happy Belated Birthday to Sally :)
